Who am I?

Blogging 101 starts today. Up until two weeks ago, I hadn’t written anything on this blog in over a year. It was dusty, and I had a lot of emotional baggage to sort through. 

My poor readers…

I have anxiety and depression. I was diagnosed in the Navy with depression, and as the years went on, I noticed a lot of my habits and actions, corresponded with anxiety as well. The two usually go hand in hand. Now recently, my husband told me how he felt, and he discussed with me the possibility of maybe a misdiagnosis. He wanted me to go get checked for BPD, or bi polar disorder.

I was scared. 

My appointment is at the end of this month, and I have managed to put some of my fears to rest. A few still manage to linger, but I know this is something I need to do. But, where does this leave me with blogging?

I will blog like I did in the past, however, this time won’t be a facade. I’m pushing for my own happiness, as well as the happiness of my family. I will push to help others, and help them smile too.

I am my anxiety. I am my depression. I am my temper, but I’m not going to let them break me. 

I will learn from them, and in turn I will learn how to truly be myself.

But for now, the question still remains, Who am I?

This is for you

Your first post of the year is important. It’s your best foot forward, it shows what your theme will be of sorts. I want this blog to inspire people, to make them happy, if only for a little while. I want to show how progress CAN be made, even if it’s slow.

  
I also want to show what is important to me. There are three people in my life, who I would do anything for!

  1. My husband
  2. My oldest daughter, my Tigger
  3. My youngest daughter, Pooh Bear


  

Those three are my world. They are my inspiration, and they are what keep me going. I wouldn’t be who I am without them.

2016, I will make our year. I will write more, which will help them more. Writing is my outlet, my medicine of sorts.

It keeps me sane.

This is for my babies, and my husband, who is also my best friend. This year is for you, not for me. You are my inspiration. I hope by making me, a better me for y’all, that I can help others.

I’m back to being me. Sometimes it takes others, to push yourself in the right direction. 

A real New Years Resolution

  
2015, you’ve been a mix of shitty and wonderfully amazing. However, it’s time for you, and all the negative people and things I’ve left behind to go!

  
I’m sick and tired of being walked on, looked at crazy, and being used and abused. Bye!

  
So, I’m leaving the miserable behind, along with the drama, the hatred, and the friends who aren’t really friends.

  
I’m focusing on my happiness, and my success. I’m focusing on my true friends, and making memories with the people who count.

  
I’m not going to care if people like me, if you do, you do. If you don’t, your loss, not mine. 

:-) Happy New Years! I’m going to be enjoying the evening with my wonderful husband!!:-)

Spreading the craziness, one smile at a time

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