Blogging 101 starts today. Up until two weeks ago, I hadn’t written anything on this blog in over a year. It was dusty, and I had a lot of emotional baggage to sort through.
My poor readers…
I have anxiety and depression. I was diagnosed in the Navy with depression, and as the years went on, I noticed a lot of my habits and actions, corresponded with anxiety as well. The two usually go hand in hand. Now recently, my husband told me how he felt, and he discussed with me the possibility of maybe a misdiagnosis. He wanted me to go get checked for BPD, or bi polar disorder.
I was scared.
My appointment is at the end of this month, and I have managed to put some of my fears to rest. A few still manage to linger, but I know this is something I need to do. But, where does this leave me with blogging?
I will blog like I did in the past, however, this time won’t be a facade. I’m pushing for my own happiness, as well as the happiness of my family. I will push to help others, and help them smile too.
I am my anxiety. I am my depression. I am my temper, but I’m not going to let them break me.
I will learn from them, and in turn I will learn how to truly be myself.
But for now, the question still remains, Who am I?