I have let go of writing a lot. It’s been my personal yo-yo to toy with as I see fit. I’ve struggled with a lot in my life, and personally being kind to myself falls on the list of struggles I have had to endure. I decided to give myself a fresh start, which is exasperatingly frightening but exciting in the same breath. I’ve never allowed myself enough forgiveness for one of those. I’ve never allotted true forgiveness to anyone or anything really. It opens up the possibility for hurt and pain to come back into my life, and it forces me to be vulnerable. This includes the ability to be consistent with my passions, and writing is one of them for me. It gives me an escape, a way to channel the thoughts in my own head. It’s the vehicle that gets me to the glowing red exit sign that everyone who has mental illness dreams about, even if only for a moment. It’s where I can let out exactly what my brain is throwing at me, and from every angle it comes from. No one in my life understands the angles like my notebook has been able to. I have been going through a lot, and am continuing the evolution process that we as human beings tend to go through many times within our lifetimes. With this being said, I have decided to start anew on this blog. I want to write, and write consistently for thirty days. If I can do that, then at thirty days I will double it. If I can make it to 90 days, I will have created a habit. This is something I have to do for myself, because I truly miss writing. I miss the writing community too.
WordPress surely has changed though. I’m sure it will take me a little bit to get used to all the new settings not only on my laptop, but on my mobile device as well. The simple days, I truly do miss those sometimes.